Saudade....

Tenho falado tanto ultimamente de saudades, que estou morrendo de saudades de muitas coisas, saudades de pessoas. Ontem fui no welcome home do filho da minha amiga Karen, Braeden acabou de retornar da Missao da Espanha, foi legal conversar em Espanhol com ele. Qdo conheci Braeden ele tinha 9 anos. Uau como o tempo passa.
Conversei bastante com um casal de outra ala e depois de 2 horas descobri que ele serviu missao no Brasil em Porto Alegre, conversamos bastante em Portugues, eles estao esperando seu primeiro bebe, vai ser uma menina. Eu fiz brigadeiro para Braeden e esse rapaz comeu e ficamos falando das coisas do Brasil, tipo variedades de Dairy o que mais sinto falta, pois acho horrivel os yougurtes daqui. Falamos das palavras saudade e " bored" eu falei da intensidade da palavra saudade e tambem que nao consigo achar uma palavra em Portugues para a palabra " bored".
Talves minha mae venha em Agosto, se ela nao vier talves eu va, estou morrendo de saudades do Brasil, da minha familia, dos meus amigos. Estou super animada para June 15 primeiro jogo do Brasil contra a Korea, vamos todos para a Casa da Lourdes vai ter uma feijoada.
Tenho um amigo americano que nao gosta quando eu digo " You guys" Qdo me refiro aos Americanos, ele sempre diz " vc e uma de nos, e cidada americana e ele tem razao moro aqui a 21 anos, mais alguns anos vou ter mais tempo de USA do que de Brasil e eh claro que tenho um grande amor por esse Pais tbem. Depois que ele me deu essa bronca sempre digo, nos Brasileiros fazemos isso e nos Americanos fazemos isso. Meu coracao jamais deixara de ser Verde, Amarelo, Bco e azul de anil, mas adicionei o vermelho tbem.

May 24TH 1987

Today is a very special day for me. I was baptized 23 years ago. Elder Griffiths and Elder Shively gave me the lessons and Elder Griffiths baptized me. I remember if it was today. It was so special, I had few people that came even though they only saw me ones. No one of my family came, but it didn't make me sad, I was very happy. I had a black pants suit. I didn't even know you had to wear dress at church. It was a very cold, cold morning and the water wasn't too warm. But I remember I was very happy. I learned the lesson and got baptized in 11 days. I never regretted. I'm so thankful for my decision. Elder Griffiths would repeat quite often " Never forget the members are not perfect, but the church is true. I try always to remember this.
I'm soooo far to be perfect, but I love my heavenly Father so much, I love my brother and Savior Jesus Christ, there are lots of things in this world that I'm not sure, but I know for sure who I'm and that my life has a purpose and that I can be forever with the ones that I love. I know my prayers are always heard and answered, even when it's not the answer that I wanted to hear.
I know my Heavenly Father loves me sooooo much, I can feel his love, I can feel he always cares. I love the young woman music " Learn of me" and I love the music " walk tall, you're a daughter, a child of God, be strong and remember who you're. try to understand you're part of his great plan, you're stronger than you know, reach out he will take you hand. Long ago in a time you can't remember, your father held you in his arms so tender, his lovely arms released you as he sent you down to earth he said " my child I love you don't forget you great worth".
I always like to hear these musics when I'm feeling down. It makes me to remember who I really M". A few times I forgot my great worth, I felt weak, I felt down and in those moments when not even me loved myself, my Father and my brother tried to make me feel loved even when I was so hurt and couldn't feel it.
I remember when Flavinho died, my heart was so broken that I thought I wouldn't be able to find the pieces, I thought my heart would never be whole again, but HE, my father in Heaven new that someday I'd LOVE again. Ele sabia que eu amaria de verdade de novo e que esse amor faria meu coracao inteiro de novo. Me fez entender que seja qual fosse a razao de ele ter levado o Flavio e o Fabio no mesmo dia nao era por acaso, eles eram melhores amigos e tinham uma missao juntos. O desejo que eu a mae do Flavio tivemos de entrarmos no templo juntas, o sonho que eu tive com ele sobre isso, um sonho que me pareceu tao real, faz com que eu tenha certeza que a mais coisas no mundo que possamos se quer imaginar. Eu tive pelo menos dois sonhos com ele que jamais serao apagados da minha memoria, coisas tao reais, tao especiais, que foram presentes de Deus para acalmar e amenizar o meu coracao. Obrigada pai, por tantos momentos lindos que vivi e vivo e tenho fe que viverei.

Our Sweet Puppy

Our sweet little puppy now has a name. Doche Rusty Gibby, this way Thais and Tati are happy. We let our friends vote. So Doche it is. Thais own the name, but Tati got to do everything for him first. Caring him from the breeder, help give him a bath, feed, she even wanted to clean his number 2. Be my guest girl.
I new I was going to love him, but I didn't think would be that much, I adore him. Que amor eu sinto por ele, que sentimento grande e gostoso. Nao me aborreco em fazer nada por ele ou para ele.
Cody said he's so spoil that his going to be gay. Greg came home today from work and saw his new playpen, his colar Tag. I think Greg thinks I'm crazy. I better stop buying things for Doche or Greg is going to put him and I to sleep outside in the playpen. Greg didn't complain, but will soon.

He's so sweet, the kids are crazy about him, I think he's starting to wrap Greg in his finger and about me? Doche have me wrapped for complete in his heart.
We got him Saturday 6:00 pm, at 1:30 am he cried I took him out on my pajamas, at 3:30 I was outside again, at 5:30 am again. I wasn't angry at all, just look at that cute face bring a big small in my face and joy to my heat even at those hrs. That what love is all about too.

Our sweet little puppy

This is the new little member of our family. He doesn't have a name yet, Thais wants Doche, Tati wants Rusty, so we ask our friends to vote. So far Rusty is winning not for much. We'll see. I kind like Dutch. Chad wants a brazilian name, but I couldn't think any cute name for puppy in portuguese.
I'm so glad I have him. Greg and the boys I know like him too. What a cute face, he's so little.
This is the picture that we took when we went to the Breeder, I went to get the girl, I was going to name her Sasha, but I fell so in love with him, I already had signed the contract and we had to sign another one. Our sweet puppy to love. The girls told Greg " Thank you daddy, you're the best daddy in whole entire world" and of course Greg melted.

A Dog to Love

I'm getting very frustrated with all this search for a dog. The girls now wants to adopt a dog, they're sweet they want to rescue one that needs love. In my case it gets a little complicated, I have a son that has a very bad asthma ( Chad), Greg doesn't want one and said that's my decision. It means I'll (me Selma) take care of it. The boys also said they don't want one. So is only me and the girls. I know the boys and Greg is going to fall in love with the dog.
We have a pool so I don't want a dog that get into the pool. I leave in Texas very hot, so one indoor dog. So after searching my best option is a Yorkshire Terrier. I found one in Houston that I fell in love with him, he's soo cute, he's name is Tyler, but the web doesn't exist anymore, it means him probably got adopted. I'll keep praying for the right one. Need to be a small one. Me a the girls would like a " girl" so we can put those cute things in her hair. I know we'll find the right one, one that needs a lot of love and that likes a lot of hugs, because my girls will spoil this dog. It can be female or male we don't care, just one to love.

Mother's Day

I had a great mother's day. Cody and Chad even posed for a picture, of course Chad had to make a silly face. Greg and the kids cooked for me, cleaned everything and Thais and Greg made cookies, thank goodness it was chocolate chip cookie and I don't like it.
Tati finally gave the gift she made at school in the card she wrote that I'm. " Sweet as a candy. As beautiful as a butterfly. As silly as a monkey. As funny as a clown. Sneak as a spy and Gentle as a puppy or a cat.
I asked her why she thought I was sneak? and she said that I always find her clothes when she pretends she put it way.

My best gift after Tati's gift of course, the tickets to go see Roberto Carlos, a brazilian singer that I LOVE. I'm so excited to go see him. Everything was simple and the best, just because I had around me the people that I love the most and loves me too. I wish my mom was here, but I called her twice and she was having a great day too. Talked to my mother-in-law, sister-in-law. Also the primary presentation was so cute. the young man gave us mothers chocolate chip cookies and chocolate, since I don't like neither my kids eat, I said I'm the only woman that doesn't like chocolate. Thankful for my family and glad that I will be forever with them. The reason I didn't post any picture of me is because Tati took 2 pictures of me w/o head. rsrsrsrsrs.

Chad's 13Th b-day

Chad Austin is not shy at all, but he also run as far as he can from my Camera, that's all the picture that I got from his party. Chad loves to skate, so I try to make a skate board but didn't turned out that great.
When Cody was 9 month old, I started not feeling well and I thought I had the Flu, so tired, anyway I didn't have the Flu, I had Chad on his way. Chad and Cody are 17 month apart, they have the same interest, like guitars, the same games. They're good friends. Chad wants to be an orthodontist. Chad never got anything less than As, he's very smart boy, but he loves to torture Thais. He's very affectionate, loves hugs and kisses, Chad has a lot of Brazilian on him. I Chose Chad's name, I just like this name and Greg chose Austin. Chad doesn't like fishing either, poor Greg he's better hang out with his girls. They like fishing.

Cody's 14th B-day Party

This is my sweet Cody Scott. Greg chose Cody's name, he said he always wanted a little boy name Cody to go fishing with him. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! His sweet little boy hates fishing, his little girl Tatiana always goes fishing with him.
I don't post to many pictures of the boys because they run as fast as they can from my camera, that's why I only post pictures of the girls.
The boys call me " mom paparazzi"
I love my boys, I chose Scott after the missionary that baptized me, I was baptizes on May 24Th and Cody was born May 25Th. His my blessing, he tells me everything and I always have to promise I won't tell my friends. Cody is a little shy and quite like his dad.

Thais's 10th B-day Pool Party

Thais's B-day is in July so it's always easy "pool party". I made the cake like a sand castle, you could eat, but I bought cup cakes and I did fruit on the stick, was just grab it, not worries about forks and we had pizza. 10 girls went to my house for shower and sleep over. I know, I know I'm crazy.

Tati's 8th B-day

Thais's and Greg's Luau B-day Party

Greg's and Thais's Luau B-day party, it was so nice. We had lots of games and the kids had lots of fun. I made non alcoholic pinacolada and I served in the coconut bowl, I enjoy so much preparing the parties, all my Americans friends says that I'm crazy, that I have too much time and disposition. The kids have fun this is what matters.

mom's memories

Cody and Chad at River Walk.

Chad at school at science fair.
Cody and Chad won the championship.

Thais's B-day

Tati with Tyler square dance at school.

Thais's Baptism

Thais baptism was very special, the grandparents Novaes from Brazil couldn't come, the grandparents Gibby were serving a mission in Spain. She knows they're all very proud of her.
Of course we had friends over afterward for a small celebration.
It has been almost 4 years ago, but I remember if it was today.

Marathon

Greg ran the Marathon with the Brazilian shirt number 10.
He trained very hard for that. I just think he's so handsome.

I love this picture

I just found this picture and made me realize how my kids are growing. They're my everything. They're the only things in life that really matter.

This is my Tati with Pepper, our friend's dog. I'm going to really starting looking for a dog, has to be a small dog, but I want her to have one.

Today when I picked her at school, she was trying so hard to hide something behind her back pack and she said. " mom please don't look me too much right now", I thought for a second, then I remembered about mother's day, she made something for me in school. Those are the best presents ever.
The last Christmas party I had at my house a friend told me that my tree was very pretty and she didn't understand why I put my kids school ornaments with my pretty ornaments. And I told her those are my most precious ornaments, each one bring me back so many memories and the other ones were pretty but meant nothing to me.

How did I survived without a cell phone?????

Thais was a little upset, because I was 5 minutes late to pick her up and she had to use her friend's cell phone to call me because she's the only girl in the entire world that doesn't have one. I told her that I was 30 when I had my first one and it looked like a brick, so big that thing was, and I survived.
She'll be 12 on July 29 and she's getting one, but she doesn't know. I survived 30 years w/o one, but now I can't stay 30 min w/o my.

Cody's 16th b-day

Just sent the invitations with Evite for Cody's 16th b-day, I can't believe my sweet little boy will be 16 on May 25th. We're having a barbecue for few friends of ours and Cody's friends. May is a very special month to me. I was baptized on May 24th. I felt such a strong desire to bear my testimony today, but I didn't because I' always cry and I hate that. Cody already told me he wants something small, he doesn't want any decorations . I'm going to make his cake, it is going to be a guitar, I'll try to make like his guitar. I'm so excited, but I'll keep it simple and plain no decorations the way he wants. Eu acabei de mandar os convites do aniversario do Cody, ele vai fazer 16 anos dia 25 de Maio, eu vou fazer um churrasco brasileiro, convidamos so alguns amigos intimos e os amigos do Cody. Eu vou fazer o bolo, vou fazer uma guitarra igual a dele. Ele me pediu para nao enfeitar muito, ele quer uma coisa simples, e simples sera, mas quero que seja um dia bem lindo para ele.
Queria que minha familia tbem estivessem aqui. Estou morrendo de saudades.

Dress modest

Today after church I asked my girls what they talked about in church today, after they told me I asked if they wanted to know what was the talk in Relief Society? Dress modest! and they said, but we dress modest. I said I know, but they're talking also about 2 pieces bikini and that I never really cared about them using because they're kids, but what the First Presidency wants parents to understand if we say that's okay for you to use now, how I'm going to make you understand that's not appropriated when you're 14, because most of your friends at school uses bikini. My girls said that's okay and tomorrow after school we're going to buy 1 piece. E vamos ter todas barrigas brancas igual largatixas.

M is for MOTHER not MAID

The girls had some friends over to swimming, I can't believe they got in, the water was so cold. Sharon is like ours too because she always here, she's like part of the family and Jessica that's Tati's close friend. They're are going to sleep over and go to church w/ us, they're not members but specially Sharon comes to church all the time. I was telling them to pick up their pillows and all the stuff they brought and take to the media room because they're going to sleep there. I gave pizza to them and set by Greg to eat my and they're talking about mothers and Greg and I just listening.
Thais e Tati started saying: " Mom always have to tell us to clean and pick up stuff. What the big deal about living stuff around? Tati said, if we don't put things way would be easy to get to it. And Sharon said, my mom is like this too, I think mothers is all the same, my mom is always saying Sharon pick up this, Sharon put way that, mothers are clean fricky and Jessica said, not all moms because my mom is not clean, she never cleans. Tati said, lucky you my mom make us clean, she says M is for Mother not for maid. Jessica said well I think is better not have a clean mom.
Greg and I were trying very hard not to laugh. We're saying that we shouldn't pay too much attention for what kids say, Jessica's mom is very organized, her house is always neat. I only put this on my blog no one here even know that I have a blog. I just thought this was funny.

My hair cut

I have to post it, for the first time in almost 19 years of marriage and almost 21 years that I know Greg, he notice that I had a hair cut, I still not sure if he said something about my hair because I told him I was living for a hair cut.
I guess it was the last time I had a hair cut, Greg, Cody and Chad passed by me, talked to me and didn't even notice, then we went outside and my neighbor said. " Selma you had a hair cut, I love it", then Greg said " Oh yes! look very good". I guess is better than other times when he said " Did you have a hair cut?????
I hate those big salon's mirror, I can't take my eyes of myself and see everything that I really don't want to see, time is passing, I'm getting old, I can see the law of gravity on my cheeks. Then I decided to look a magazine and guess what? I don't have my contacts on, so I couldn't read, so I'm getting blind too. I asked the guy that was doing my hair " wasn't I suppose to feel beautiful when I leave here?? Next time cover this mirror. He laughed, he does my hair for 4 years, he said " Selma you're beautiful" and I said he wasn't getting a bigger tip for lying.
For make my day even brighter I talked to my mom today, it's amazing that my mom asked me almost ones a week how old I'm going to be in October and she never remembers, then I tell her and she gives me the same answer " Oh dear you don't look, but you're getting old", I told her I know mom, I had a big mirror in front of me for one whole hour today.
I told Greg that was getting old, he said he's too. I guess that's the beauty of getting old together. I told Greg, we have the kids college funds, mission funds, raining days funds, I told him to add " Selma's face lift funds" hopefully I'll have enough money there in 2 years.