Jul 31, 2011

Thais's 13th b-day





Thais's 13th b-day goodie bag






Each one of Thais's friend got one. That was soooo easy to make it!

Thais's 13th b-day behind the scene!!






Who see the beautiful table and yummy cake and goodies, has no idea all the wrong things that happens in the kitchen. Cake that fell on the floor, whipping cream that melted and so onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!! At the end was all good :) I had to redo the cup cakes and the cake!

Thais's 13th b-day




Thais's friend got here at 4:00 pm so they could have fun alone w/o boys.

Thais's 13th b-day






Brazilians invite the whole family, so that's impossible make a party to small, unless is an adult only party. I only invite my close friends and Thais invite her friends. She was very happy and that's what really matters, it was her day !!!!!

Thais's 13th b-day





Thais's 13th b-day




Jul 28, 2011

This week!!!!!!

This week a friend asked how I feel about turning 50 next year!!!!! Uau!!!! I can't believe it myself, but hello I still 48....
Then I remember how I felt when I was about to turn 40, I was a little depressed, sad, then I said to myself, that's just numbers, the real age is how you feel inside, it's your spirit, your heart. So I gave myself a BIG PARTY, all my guests came in black, my decoration was black, white and purple, it was soooooo beautiful. My cake was a grave and it said " here lays my youth"
I always say, I' feel blessed just to be me, there are things that I'd differently, some I still can, some I can't do the same things, but I can do other things. I'm happy, I'm married and I love my husband, I feel loved, I have 4 beautiful and health children and I have a dog, for me I have a great life, it's great for me.
I read few month ago, for all of us are given the same amount of time, 24 hrs a day and what we choose to do with our hrs is up to us. I always tell my kids our life belongs to God, but our choices is up to us and I believe on that.
Sometimes I few like telling people you're being stupid, wake up, but it's not up to me, for sure 25,30,35 years ago somebody felt the same way about me, but me too thought I new at all we all think that we know at all.
I made bad decision along my way in life, nothing that I'm terrible sorry, or ashamed, or regret that bad, but are things that I always said I'd do different. Then I think today, at this moment, at 48 years of age, if I had done different chances are everything else could be different.
I know I sound crazy sometimes, but I like, I love what I have, and what I think would be so wonderful and perfect is because I never had, I just wonder. There is a purpose in everything.
I want to go back to school and finish my degree in child development that I started few years ago, I need to talk to the adviser and tell them where I want to go, I want to work in the future when Tati goes to HS with foster care children. I want to help them. I need to see how many hrs I need to finish and I'm going to do it.
I'm fighting with this desire for years, but now I want, I'm ready :)
That's so much in this world that need to be done, I wish I could rescue all the children, elderly and animal that suffer, feed all the hungry, but I can't, but I can do some, next year I'm going to rescue a dog and I'll make somebody life better :)

Just thoughts!!!!

Today was a crazy day,when you think that things can't get any worse "??". Made Thais's cup cake cone, drop every single one on the floor, I couldn't believe it, I didn't know if I'd cry or laugh. For sure I didn't laugh, but I didn't cry either.
then I went to finish Thais's big cake, the banana split one and I made the stupid decision to use ready to use whipping cream instead of making my own of heavy cream. The beautiful cake, all my hard work melt way in the fridge. Once again I didn't cry.
You know what they say, if life give lemon make a lemonade, but I was so mad that I wanted to make a " caipirinha " brazilian version of margarita. hahaha!!! Okay I didn't. but I needed one so bad, wish I could make one.
At the end everything looks good, did again the cup cake cone, fiz the big cake and tomorrow morning I'll make my own whipping cream. Tomorrow is my sweet little girl's b-day even though she's a little taller than me, but she'll be always my little girl.
I think I'll have 12 or 13 girls here at 4:00 pm and then 8pm some friends will come. Glad Greg's cake is done too, even though he says I don't need to do anything for him, I know he cares and I care too.
This is one way that I show people that I love, that I care, doing something special for them. Everybody is different, show differently. I like to make my own b-day cards for my family and special friends, sometimes I don't have time to make it and I'll it, and my feelings is not smaller because I didn't make it.

Jul 26, 2011

grateful to be me...

Last Saturday I met a woman, very pretty, I loved her hair cut, it wouldn't look good on me, but it was perfect on her. she was very outgoing, fun to be around, I could talk with her for hours and not get bored. After while she started using her family as an example and she got deeper and deeerp about her life.
She was a single mom of three when she met her actual husband, she has 2 other kids with him, their ages 18 yrs old - to 13 month old, five kids, she's a lot younger than me. All her kids but 1 has some kind of mental problems, her husband just found out he has a tumor in his legs.
Uau,uau!!!!!with all her problems she didn't look sad, depressed, for the whole time she was smiling and talking about how God and Jesus is special and important in her life, how she couldn't make w/o them. She's not LDS, I never heard about her church, but I could feel her faith, her love for our Savior.
In 4 hrs I felt glad, blessed and guilty. Glad and blessed to be "me", for the family and life I have, I don't have problems, we're all healthy, we love each other, we have more than we need, maybe not all that we want, we always want something, but for sure more than we need. We're so blessed :)