Apr 30, 2010

Ordem and Progresso

Tatiana got a new belt today!!!!!


She did it again one more belt. Tati is very happy and she should be.
She worked very hard. Over the summer we are going to make a comforter with all her belts, well we're going to start it and add more as she gets new ones.

Busy, busy day. Houston, Tati belt graduation!!!!! She's my doll, she's always so happy. I know she wants a dog, I'll make this wish come true, just don't know when. I'm looking for one.

Apr 29, 2010

My friend Michele

My friend Michele gave the same questions for 6 different people and I'm one of them.


Q- Something about me that not too many people knows.
A- I'm afraid of dark, I do not watch scary movies, when I came to USA I stayed at my friend Cristina's house em Utah and my friend Patty would scary me all the time we still laugh about those times. When I go to bed the bathroom door has to be closed, I don't like to look at the dark and sometimes if Greg forgets to close it, I tell him to get up and do it and he hates and says." Okay ghost I'm closing the door you stay right there".

Q-One thing that Greg did that made me really mad.
A- When I went to Utah for the first time to meet his parents we were walking by a dirty lake and I was looking at it, I had a short overall with a large belt, Greg grab the belt and pretended to push me in the dirty water, when he pull me back the belt broke and I fell in it. I was covered in mud I have the picture to prove it. I wanted to kill Greg that day.

Q-What did I do that made Greg really mad.
A- I asked him and he said he couldn't think about anything, but I think he got kind mad w/ me when I hit a cockroach so many times with a broom that I kind damaged the wood floor, I'm so afraid of that thing.

Q-One thing that made me feel very stupid.
A-It was a long, long time ago, I was going to make a new recipe from a cookbook and it asked for Chilled butter and I think I stayed over 30 min on the butter section trying to find that butter and an employee came to me and asked me if I need help and I told him that I needed chilled butter and when he told me that I need to do was put the butter in the fridge I felt so stupid that I didn't even make whatever I was going to make.

Q-First dish that I made.
A- O boy this was when I first got here, I'm not kidding I didn't know how to boil eggs, I bought the shake and bake for the chicken breast and I followed the instructions using a dictionary and I put it in the Oven temp 400 for 4 hrs instead of 40 min I don't think is necessary to mention that we went out to eat.But I have to add please, that this is passed I cook very good now, people even asked me recipe.

Q-One good thing about me.
A-I think I'm a good person, I try very hard to be fair with people, I think because I'm converted I don't judge too much others, I think I'm a good friend.ooops I think I put more than one thing I guess is for make up for the others questions above.

Q-One happy moment.
A-I can't put just one, when Greg asked me to marry him, when I marry, when I found out I was pregnant when I thought it would never happen because I was trying for a while and when I saw each one of my babies sweet face.

Q-One thing that amazes me.
A-A baby, have that special being forming,growing inside of me, feel he kicking, giving life to someone so fragile , nursing was the most amazing thing for me. I'm so thankful for this gift that was given to me of been a mother.

Q-One think that I miss so much that hurt.
A- Of course my family, I miss Brazil, the beaches, coconut water, my friends. I don't miss everyday, but I do miss. In my house we try to bring to our lives the best of Brazil and the Best of USA. X-mas we celebrate both. Christmas eve the Brazilian way, we dress up, set a beautiful table with lots good food and party all night long, dance, it's so fun.Normally we spend with my Brazilian friends in their house. On X-mas day we have a nice dinner just our family and New year we have a big party in our house, most of my guests are friends from church. At midnight fireworks.

Q- One thing I won't eat.
A- There is several things I won't eat, but one that I ask Greg please never trick me is Deer meat. I grown up reading about Bambi, then Greg says that he doesn't kill Bambi, only Bambi's dad. not funny.

Q- One thing that I thought was funny and Greg didn't.
A- I had just arrived home from Brazil and Greg was very excited about his new car, on the way to work, he was still near our house he hit a big Deer, smashed his door, Greg was so mad and I told him one day is the hunter, other day is the deer, I said maybe was that little Bambi that you killed his dad, he grown up and got you. Greg just looked me, I don't think he thought was funny. I did.

Q- One regret.
A- If I ever really hurt someone. Beside that there is nothing that I did that I regret, I'm not perfect, I learned with every mistake, they made me stronger, a better person. No regrets.

Q- Music that touch your heart.
A- There are several, but I'd say " emocoes" Se chorei ou se sorri, o importante e que emoces eu vivi" doesn't remind me anyone in special, just how I feel about life. " Because you loved me " I think about Greg".

Q-Something that I would tell my husband.
A- I love him with all my heart, we're different in some things, but at the end we complete each other and he makes me very happy. We go out our way to make the other one happy. I go fishing sometimes and others he take me dance. We go camping for him and go to the beach and Hotel for me.

Q-Something that my husband would tell me.
A-well, I just asked him and he said: That he loves me very much, would marry me all over again, can't imagine his life w/o me and if he didn't have me in his life he would have a LOT MORE MONEY, but he wouldn't be as happy and that something that really likes about me is that I'm always happy in peace with life, someone fun to be around. ( I told Greg when he gets the credit card bill this month just think how happy I make him. He says I'm expensive and I tell him I'm Imported hahahaha!)

Q-Something that I promised and sometimes I wish I didn't.
A- I said that from Jan/2010 to Dec/2010, I wouldn't buy anything for me unless is something really necessary, not even one pair of shoes, one dress, nothing. I did that because I like to shop I have over a 150 pair of shoes and since I won't be going to the mall because I can't shop, I'm reading more, doing other things that I enjoy. I have to say it hasn't been as hard as I thought it would be. Greg ask me if I could extend the goal until 2020. He's really enjoying this goal.

Okay Michelle it's done. Took me a while, but I did.

Things that kids say:

My kids just asked me if is there anything else that I think beside cleaning, they said that I tell them to clean all the time. I answered " Oh yes! has a lot of other things that I think about, like I could read my book, I love to read, I could get on with my french Cd's and practice it, I can think of soooooo many things that I could do with my extra time if you would pick up and clean up your own mess" and I gave them a smile and told them very nicely to go put their clean, folded clothes way.
Kids don't understand how much we do while they're at school, these when I'm not at school helping in something or doing visiting teaching, taking or picking up laundry, and all the activities after school, I'm not complaining just saying that they don't think.
Tati wants a friend to come over with her after school tomorrow and stay for a sleep over, normally I don't care, I prefer their friends come to our house, than they go their house, but I'm so tired today, I really don't know why, I slept good last night, I didn't even see when Greg came to bed and I woke up at 6:30am, but since 2 this afternoon I'm so sleeping. I did yoga this morning for 1 1/2 hrs and felt so good.
Anyway I told Tati not tomorrow and she keep asking me why? Can you think about again? No, Nao.
Tomorrow I have to go to Houston, I have to resolve my Brazilian vote card, I haven't vote or justify why I didn't vote for all this years that I'm here. In Brazil it's not option to vote or not, You MUST VOTE, or you pay big fines. There is a card that's called Titulo de Eleitor every Brazilian Citizen has one with a number, every time that you vote they stamp it, so now if you're Brazilian and live in another country and you don't participate and Vote to chose the Brazilian President, you can't renew you Brazilian Passport.
This year Brazil is going to choose the new president, so we have only until May 5 to have everything in order, May 5 is the last day. So I'm going tomorrow with some Brazilian friends, Greg will come home early to pick up the kids. I don't know how long it will take in Houston.
I didn't call my mom today, normally I call her everyday, I hope she comes this summer, she's saying she's coming for the last 3 years, I think she gets nervous to come alone. Greg was asking me this morning if she's coming, he really likes her, he laugh so hard because when my mom come to visit she doesn't let us take Greg's shirts to the cleaner and she even irons he's t-shirt, even the ones he uses to work in the yard, I can't laugh because I iron most of my t-shirts and I don't leave the house with wrinkle clothe. Dinner time, shower time and then bed time. I don't feel like post any photo, only if is a picture of a bed. I need to start to write my posting in Portuguese, the main reason I have this is to my family see the pictures and I think would be nice for them to be able to read, believe or not I get confused when I write in Portuguese sometime, if the word is w/ 1 s, 2 ss. How sad my Portuguese used to be perfect, I'm here over 20 years, I talk a lot in Portuguese, but I don't write or read much in Portuguese, it's funny but even my scriptures, my prayers is all in English, is automatic, sometimes I say it in both.

Apr 28, 2010

Our life has a purpose.......





Today after almost 17 years I talked with a special dear friend of mine, the first friend that I met when I came to USA 1989. I didn't speak any English, but he spoke Portuguese. I lived with a very nice family from church (Bates)and they're a blessing in my life, they always treated me as a part of the family. They'll have a special place in my heart forever.They had two children Devin 5 yrs and Natalie almost 2yrs.I loved them so much, I always I will.Natalie was my little princess I'd give her a bath every morning a dress her up, she called me Selmi for a while.Devin was a very smart little boy,new how to be sweet and charming, every night when I passed by his bedroom he would say ( Selma could you please sing me a song in Portuguese) and I'd laid down with him and did sing for him, and didn't matter how hard my day with Devin had been, at that moment they're gone and there near me was a little boy that I really love.Devin would say ( Selma I love you, tomorrow I'm going to be good).Sweet memories of two sweet kids, today my little girl tells me sometimes (mom tomorrow I'll be good) then I think about Devin. Both are married now. Natalie is a mother, my sweet Natalie abacaxi has a little boy.
Talking to my friend today made me go back time and remember when I joined church in May 1987. I never heard about Mormons before in my life. At the time I was at North of Brazil, Recife in vacation at my dad's house and my uncle gave me a bible, my very first one. I remember that my uncle told me that I was special in the Lord's eyes.
I Started reading the bible and something was touching my heart, I couldn't explain why, but I couldn't stop reading. One day I felt such a desire to cry for no reason while I was reading and then I told the Lord that I was so tired of people trying to convert me and I asked him with all my heart if there was for real one way to go back and live with him someday for him to show me.

3 days later my mom called me and told me that my brother met two very nice Americans that loved to eat cake, that she would have them over when I'd go back. I continued to read and feeling weird. When I came home my mom set a very nice afternoon snack that normally is ( cheese, bread,cake,orange juice, coffee you name it), when they came and saw that I was young they told each other that they'd waist their time w/ me, they said I was young and pretty ( they told me this later), but what they didn't know that the Lord was preparing my heart. I had so many questions for them, they stayed for a while answering my question and during the prayer we all felt the Spirit. I was baptized and no one from my family came to my baptism, but they didn't might either, that was okay w/ them.
One month later I was called to teach the young woman, I was so scared, how could I teach them? They could teach me. I learned so much while I was teaching those girls, I bought myself a self progress book and I started working on it and I set for myself high goals, that I wouldn't be weak, that I'd marry in the Temple someday no matter what would come on my way.
I had a boy friend when I joined church and he didn't like Mormons and I had to choose him or church. On Valentine's day in Brazil I met this guy in the Church dance, somebody send me a rose and I thought that was him, that was very funny, we laugh a lot and I felt very bad for the one that really sent me the rose, we starting dating, he was very handsome, charming and I was very happy that I met him, but wasn't my time to be happy yet 2 weeks after my birthday he and his best friend died in a horrible car accident. I wonder If the Lord sometimes tries our faith. I was so broken heart, took me a long time to smile again.

One year later I came to USA. I still don't know how I had courage to come, I was so attached to my family, I have 2 brothers and I'm the only girl, I didn't know how to boil eggs when I came hear. I felt so lonely and so many times I taught about going back home, I missed my family so much, everything was so different, Americans are wonderful people, but more conservative than Brazilians. I had this friend that took me to the singles ward, to the dance, I guess I was his karma, but he was my too, he was a very good friend. Then I met Susan and things got easier, she was an angel sent from heaven, she helped me with my English we still very good friends. She's my eternal friend. After while I met Greg, we're just friends for a while, then we slowly fell in love, we dated 1 yr and 6mo before we got married, I guess I wanted to make sure that I could stay forever without my family, w/o my "Brazil" that I love so much.
Tonight as I was preparing dinner and looking my children passing by me, I felt so much gratitude for my life, I guess if all the wrong things didn't exist maybe I wouldn't be here right now. Sometimes we don't understand things, we don't even understand ourselves, but the Lord does. I believe in miracles, I believe in the power of prayer, I believe the Lord know me by my name, that even before I start telling him something he already felt my heart. I think I only started to understand the Lord when I became a mother, sometimes we have to say no to ours kids, even when hurt us, because we know what's best for them. I was hurt few times, I hurt people few times, that's life.
If I had the power to go back time, I wouldn't want Roberto( my sweet heart from High school) to have died so young. I wouldn't want Flavio to have died, that was too sad. I don't even like to remember how much I suffered on both occasions.

If I had this power, If the Lord would give me that choice, I would still come here, I'd still leave my family, I would still leave Brazil, Just to be Greg's eternal wife and be the mother of this 4 most precious children that the Lord gave me to love, to care and to guide back to him and be with them for all eternity.

















Greg and I went to Tati's class field trip. It was all about Nature. Tati was very proud because her dad was teaching her friends how to fish.
She told everybody when went sea fishing last year.
For me (Selma) was the longest and horrible hours of my life, I was so scared, I went because Greg said that I never went sea fishing with him, That I'd be surprise how much I'd enjoy.
I was nice about, but I couldn't wait for the end. I catch a baby shark.
I wouldn't do it again. Now he's trying to take me sky diving. He went ones and he loved it. He really would like me to go with him. I wish I could, I really would like to be the kind of girl that is not scared of height but I'm.
Tati will be that kind of girl, she's not afraid of things, she looks for worm to go fishing with her dad, if I let her she'd bring all the kind of bugs inside the house. When we leave the house after a raining day we have to look where we put our feet so we don't step on the snails. A year ago I almost had a heart attack I went to put her clothe way and I found a little box full of snails in their shell inside her drawers.












Thais did so much better, I really think she played very well.
Way to go Thais.



This is Tati ready from Children International Day.
She represented India.
I think is the 3rd time that I'll help at the India Booth. It's funny
because I already new so much from India, it's people and culture. I was asked if they could add Brazil for next year CID. I represented Brazil almost 17 years ago in Dallas with Kevin and Chris Mcdonald, they had more stuff about Brazil than me. I made brigadeiros. Brigadeiros is always a big plus on my parties.

Apr 27, 2010

More Tati's 9Th B-day.






This year we decided to do something small, Tati could invite up to 12 girls. We had pizza, they had a little spa. The girls all came in their pajamas, they danced. I think they had a great time.
I enjoyed doing their faces and their hair. They're very cute girls, but they have a lot of energy. At 11:00 pm
everybody went up for movies and popcorn and Greg and I went to our bedroom pray for them not make too much noise and fall sleep fast. I have to say that our prayers were not answered. In the morning Greg made pancake for everybody and they decorate it. I told Greg in the morning. " Is it not more sleepping over after the party" Greg said " right, can you write it down and sign it???? I didn't. They grow so fast, one day they'll leave and we'll have all the sweet memories. I know he enjoys too as much as I do.

Tati's B-da party 9 years old





More Port Royal





Port Royal






We had a great time like always we're together.............

Thais e Tati wanted a Title "The best sisters"





my b-day party





I had lots of fun, B-day is a big deal in Brazil. I made a Brazilian party, all the appetizers, main dish and desserts were all Brazilian. Half the guests I think were Brazilians. My wish before blow the candle was: LORD IF YOU CAN'T MAKE SKINNY LIKE I USED TO BE, PLEASE MAKE ALL MY FRIENDS FAT TOO. Now I have lots of friends praying for me to be skinny again. Hahahahaha!!!!!!

Us




I can remember exactly what happened, I just remember Tati crying and telling me she wanted to do Karate because no boys would mess with her again, I think Chad did something to her. She didn't stop asking about it and she's doing over 2 years now, she's very good. It was very cute, when she got the first belt I can't remember which color was, but she told her master, I don't this one I want the black one. He said Tati you'll have to work very hard for that one.

For my husband...

For all those times you stood by me, for all the truth that you made me see. For all the joy you brought to my life, for all the wrong that you made right.
For every dream you made come true, for all the love I found in you, I'll be forever thankful baby, you're the one who held me up never let me fall, you're the one who saw me through, through it all.
You're my strength when I was weak, you're my voice when I couldn't speak, you're my eyes when I couldn't see, you saw the best there was in me, lifted me up when I couldn't reach, you gave me faith 'coz you believed. I'm everything I'm because you loved me.
You gave me wings and made me fly, you touched my hand and I could touch the sky,I lost my faith you gave it back to me, you said no star was out of reach. You stood by me and I stood tall, I had your love, I had at all. I'm grateful for every day you gave me, maybe I don't know that much, but I know this much is true, I was blessed because I was loved by you.
You were always there for me, the tender wind that carried me, a light in the dark shining your love into my life. You've been the inspiration, through the lies you were the truth, MY WORLD IS A BETTER PLACE BECAUSE OF YOU.

(because you loved me from Celine Dion) I wish I had written this song because this is my life and how I feel about you. mi amore....


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